Early morning breath

Quick breaths always so difficult on a cloudy mornings day. As I try to catch my breath from nothing I contemplate what it would be like to be someone else for a day. To not be fixated on the minor details of the room, to not organize items around me, to not count my steps when I walk, or notice the stains around me. It would be different that I must admit, but could I handle such an ordeal... probably not and that is why I am me and not anyone else.

I often wonder if breathing upside down makes a difference as I contemplate if yoga will help or not with suffocation I feel deep within my lungs. I often consider the possibilities of lung cancer, breast cancer or some unknown illness lurking beneath the surface, but usually it is not enough to stop me from taking an inhale of the prescribed medication.

They say that this stuff causes cancer, yet the doctor's concern was Osteoporosis. I am in my 20's hardly such an age where one might be concerned, except for someone who knows the side effects of such drugs. To breath or to destroy the calcium from you body, I wonder how long before I notice anything different. Perhaps this is why I am so stubborn and refuse to take it on a regular basis. If only I didn't have an addiction to things that made me sick.