A craving for change

The beginning of a weekend; what am I going to do now that I do not have a boyfriend attached at my side? My parents go to the hotter part of Las Vegas to hang out at one of the nice end hotel lifestyle resorts to drink wine, watch fireworks, and hang out by the pool. This year they are worried about me so they invite me along. I guess they are getting 6 rooms for all their buddies so that might be entertaining if there is nothing else to do.

So the ‘boyfriend’ had bought two tickets to the UFC fight on Saturday, July 5th. I am a big UFC fan and it was the best idea, which buying a ring and asking ‘the big question’ at a thing like that is so ME. I just wonder if I somehow knew and panic overtook my emotions. So since the dispute or break up, whatever it is we are doing these days, I obviously cannot ask for the tickets that might be odd. Instead the best guy friend (not the LIFER) called last night and asked if I wanted to go with him and his 5 guy friends to the fight. I must be ‘ONE of the guys’ but one day I will have a girlfriend and do girl things… maybe! I am so excited! I told him I would let him know today. Why would I possibly consider not going? Yes, I am having a girl moment and wanted to see what the ‘BFF for LIFE’ is doing. I know he said he wanted to go to the river which is so much fun in itself, but that doesn’t really mean he wants to take me along.

The river is a place we went when we were younger. We spent weeks, months, even days at the river hanging out on a doc riding sea-doos. This time his brother wants him to go. Depending on which brother and the amount of small children may determine if he or I end up there. I still am considering the fight and a random weekend with the rents.

So awhile ago I met the ‘boyfriend’ or whatever he should be called these days, in San Diego. I sat next to this lady who seemed really fun she said she would call and we would hang out. I did not really believe that she would call or we would ever talk past the plane, but she did. Last night she wanted to know how I was doing, and if wee could hang out sometime. I mentioned the boyfriend situation/break up deal. She said she would be my friend. How funny is that! Hey maybe I found an actual ‘girlfriend’ deal. We shall see what happens, but my goal is to do something different. I need a hobby to reclaim my social life. I was considering wine tasting, knitting clubs or groups, possibly book clubs or anything else I could find. What do people do my age besides drink at bars and club? Funny how that is all I know how to do, being born and raised in Las Vegas maybe that should tell me something.

I need physical activities as well, which I decided I want to reclaim my body. Even though I didn’t gain the ‘relationship weight’ I still want to get buff or change something. The desire for change… I was considering hair, clothes, make up, even tattoos. I am not sure how drastic or extreme things will become but we shall see.