Touch my soul

Damaged goods? After one break up, is it smart to enter another relationship? Both of us are coming off the relationship roller coaster, does that only doom our next relationship? Are men more likely to hold a grudge longer than women? Who will be more likely to more forward sooner? Perhaps it has more to do with what is at stake, and I have less at stake than him...

I am addicted to someone I hardly know, yet have known longer than anyone else I know. Does that intense passion fade over time? What is it we should be looking for? I want passion, I want to fight for something so real, yet I do not even know what I am fighting for anymore. I look back and I thought I was happy. I remember being happy with the X, yet in a single moment it disappears. I need something stronger than that. Something that latches onto my soul. Six years after Griffs death I still love him. I still miss him. Was that my moment? Is that my one? The one I am now looking for?